domingo, 15 de agosto de 2010

life's going tough

what about my life now? let's see

since a week ago, my moods have been very unstable...I can be right, happy...even with a smile...
but deep inside me, i know i'm lying to everyone...i'm not that happy...this can sounds tough, but actually...i feel alone...like the typical ''young trouble''...the world don't understand me...
what can i do to remediate this? nothing.
i though at...thuesday, that i would like to do things without any complication, any consequense...do any stuff that i enjoy, and not being punished for that...
read books (my favorite books, not from school), listen some music, go out for a walk alone...but, there's always a complaining...
''You don't do nothing for life'', ''you live in a bilz-&-pap world'', ''stop doing that, because that will not be useful for your future life''...what future?...i can't see me living a grown-up life...
being...bored, unhappy...stressful...sad all day...i couldn't live with that...
''you don't want to grow up, don't you? poor of you, but you will'' they say...well, if there's no option, i will be the way i want to be...
i want to cry and let it go...all the pain, all this sadness...all the suffer...
but, when the time's right, the tears don't come out...it's just unfair...
oh, well...i needed to be listened (even if i'm being listen from myself)...
i need to be listened...and anyone listen me but myself...
i want to go away, walk and listen anything...
i need it...
i wish for it...
i'll wait for it...

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